Silence (18/05/2009)

Opening my eyes,
See what's ahead.
Closing some doors,
Open new windows.

That's what I feel I must do.
But I stay in the cold instead.
All by myself.

I am constantly stuck in here!
Too frightened to leave things in the past.
I don't want to find me
Recalling..
Because who remembers,
Have previously forgotten...

I don't want to leave behind
What was important…
I sense you watching over me
All the time.
Each second!

Looking at the stars I endure,
In silence.
Each one represents a moment,
That only we can appreciate.
Beautiful moments.
So hurtful...

I cried almost every day,
On hours of darkness, on sunlight…
Trying to find a reason for your lies,
Fighting against all grief,
I desire that you show me
The truth in your eyes!

But don’t say it unless you mean it.

The plans we did,
The dreams we had,
Unfulfilled,
All in the past.
And now,
Trapped in silence.

Those moments are like little voices
Screaming in my head, so loud.
Pleading me to let them go!
So they will approach you,
To speak my mind.

Daily I suffer,
Trying not to listen to those voices,
Trying to ignore their calling.

One day I won't be able to
Disregard them.

"I Find It Kinda Funny,
I Find It Kinda Sad,
The Dreams In Which I'm Dying
Are The Best I've Ever Had...
I Find It Hard To Tell You."